I’m please to write that I’m not 157 days without a flare. Although I haven’t had a flare my body and mind are very tired. The seasons are changing and I feel it in my body and my bones. My Raynaud’s is more prominent so I have to keep my hands covered and warm as much as possible and the cold is sitting my hips and knees. It is interesting how weather and seasons can have an effect on our bodies and even my mind to some effect. As we move into winter I feel as though I go into protection mode, making sure I’m doing all I can to stay well, stay far from illness, try to get more sleep and rest and my exercise moves inside.
I’m still doing my yoga teaching and practicing on my own but as we move into the winter I really yearn for that hot yoga experience which I’m not involved in due to time really. I teach in a regular studio and practice in my home so my goal is to find one time a week to enter a hot yoga studio and do some personal practicing. I’m looking for that quiet time on my mat where my practice can be my own instead of my own practice be preparation for my classes. There is a fine line between teaching and practicing and how to separate the two. I think that is why many people love yoga and would make great teachers but choose not too because you lose a bit of your own quiet, time on the mat and moving to how your body moves vs how you think your students will move.
I took a trauma sensitive training course this past weekend for my yoga instructing and it was both inspiring and overwhelming. Many people turn to yoga to help them through their trauma. Many people experience trauma in different ways and handle it differently. The training was around severe trauma but as you listen to stories and you reflect on your own life so many people are plagued by trauma. Losing loved ones, living with illness, your own or someone else’s, abuse, addiction, war, pain, suffering. There are so many aspects to trauma and what people go through. As I’m listening to stories and reflecting on my own life, I feel gratitude, so much gratitude because I’m not living with trauma. That doesn’t mean I haven’t felt loss or pain, it doesn’t mean I’m not dealing with health issues, but it means that I feel like every morning I wake up I’m in a state of secure, love, health, happiness and contentment and feel grateful for this place.
I turned to yoga as an outlet to bring me better health and what I find is that it isn’t just my own yoga that brings me better health but sharing yoga with others brings me better health. I learn from the people I’m around. I take a little of their energy with me. I give little of my own energy to them. We are in a community of sharing, caring, healing and giving. As I move into winter and my body might flare I know I have the tools to recover quickly so although I’m thrilled about 157 days without a flare, I don’t fear the next flare.