As I write this it is 6am and I am just returning from a much needed bike ride. I was out as it was just getting light, enjoying first fresh air and some quiet time. It is very peaceful so early in the morning and although a little cool even with several layers it was just what I needed. I have been feeling overwhelmed and stressed recently and although I can find some calm moments on my yoga mat, my head is full and racing most of the time. I am preparing for my annual bike ride to support diabetes so even with the stress I must train.
Being out there on the open road this morning all by myself, maybe a car or two but mostly just me and the birds I realized there is much more to life than the stress of work. I cannot help the fact that I must work but I can control how I react to it. In my yoga training we have been putting together sequences and I put one together that I call my “Control Sequence” even though I feel like I have lost control the last couple of weeks I’m slowly gaining it back. I’m exhausted because my mind is racing all night but I’m hoping as I gain control, find these peaceful moments in my life that do not pertain to work and enjoy hours on my yoga mat, while also spending quality time with my husband and family I will be able to let go some of this stress.
We all know stress is our number one trigger for flares and I’m sitting at 256 days without a flare so obviously I want to stay on that path. I don’t necessarily have control over if I have stress but I do have control over how I deal with it. Sometimes I need gentle reminders of that and I need moments like I had this morning to remind me that there is more to life. My mother put it so eloquently the other day when she said the things that matter most are my health, my relationship with myself, my relationship with my husband and my family. Those are the reminders I need. My bike ride is in 2 weeks so my hope is I can have several more of these glorious moments.
This past week was a week of moving and stepping with most of it being outside getting fresh air and golfing. This is truly my favorite time of year
Total – 95,376
Average – 13,625
Floors – 161
This past week I have pulled my bike out as I start to train for our 50k ride in June for diabetes. I don’t have diabetes but it is an auto-immune disease so any progress the medical field makes in the diabetes realm perhaps it can also pertain to MCTD over the years of research. This is my 2nd annual ride but I the fun part is that I just learned to ride a bike for last year’s ride so this year I actually know what I’m doing. Riding is great exercise but it doesn’t translate well to steps on the fitbit. I had a very active week, it just doesn’t show well on the weekly steps. The floors is registering the big hills I climbed and registered my body headed upward so I have a big increase in my floors this week. During this ride I also did 100 floors in one day and earned my skyscraper badge from fitbit. Not that it means much but it is fun to get my e-mail about badges earned.
Total – 88,751
Average – 12,679
Miles – 34.29
Floors – 255
This week I signed up for a work week hustle but considering my fatigue issues and my overabundance of Yin yoga my walking stats and ability to be competitive are at a low. I usually stand at the top of the leader board during these challenges but this week I’m very content to be in the middle, maybe the bottom by the end of the week. However, my stats for week of May 4th are the following.
Total – 83,630 – a little lower than last week but not bad
Average daily – 11,947
Miles – 32.47
Floors – 120
Everyone in my office environment is suffering from some sort of running nose, watery eye phenomenon but some call it a cold others call it allergies and who really knows? Last week I traveled clear across the country from Portland Maine to Vancouver BC and it was one of the longest trips I have taken in sometime. I was on 2 airplanes for more than 12 hours and my body was stiff and sore when I got off the plane out west. I did yoga that same night and each morning thereafter until I returned home. When I got home my body was so stiff and sore that I have been doing a mixture of Yin yoga with Vinyassa to get the kinks out and also doing some massage therapy. My body and mind feel utterly exhausted. My thoughts are scattered and I while sitting up meditating I actually fell asleep one morning. I have been trying to walk, do a lot of yoga and lay off the weight training until my body has the strength to perform normally again.
I have been doing some reading and writing but like now just typing out this blog is taking me longer than usual as I’m fighting foggy brain and forgetting my words. Last night my skin was hurting and my body was so sore but my husband mentioned that I had glassy eyes also. I said oh I think it is either a cold or allergies. He said it was traveler’s fatigue. Interesting, traveler’s fatigue, I believe he just may be right. The symptoms are similar to what other people in the office are facing but because I don’t get office bugs but once a year and have never had allergies I think he might have nailed my diagnosis. I have never really done well with traveling and doing a long distance stint like that was fairly grueling. Coming back and losing the 3 hours seemed to be more difficult but it could all be mental and both ways are just as difficult.
When I got home I went to one yoga session at the studio but realize my body needed more restorative yoga and that is when I turned to Yin. I have been doing Yin now every day since my arrival home, but fitting in some sessions of vinyassa just to remind my body and mind that I can in fact do this and although it will take some time to get back to base line I am willing to do everything needed to get there as well as wait as long as it takes. It all goes back to listening closely to what the body needs and what mine needs right now is rest. Walking seems to be working fairly well and even doing a few minutes of walking meditation at lunch time are helping. The weather has turned a corner here in Maine so getting fresh air outside and some vitamin D is also helping. All these things add up to getting back to base line as quickly as possible without pushing too hard, too fast and expecting too much.
For the week of April 29th and to say good bye to April and hello May I did well with my steps. Increase from last week and still managed to keep my yoga practice in tact as well.
Total – 90,535
Average daily – 12,934
Miles – 35.34
Floors – 141