I wrote a post a few weeks ago about sticking with your change, goal or resolution for 66 days in order for it be part of your new routine. My change is to meditate each day and as of today I’m up to 8 minutes. Not very impressive for the fully committed meditators I’m sure but for me a huge accomplishment. I started at 3 minutes and moved to 5 minutes and a couple of days tried my first 8 minute session. It was a crash and burn session in the fact that for whatever reason my mind did not want to be sitting on that bolster, against that wall, listening to those sounds, wiping out those thoughts for any length of time. I started some negative talk and had to remove it immediately. I didn’t fail because I couldn’t sit there that day but I think I put too much expectation on myself to soon so I tried again this time with no expectation and found that quiet moment for 6 minutes.
The next day I went back to my space and 8 minutes seemed very doable and there was my graduation point into the 8 minute mark. Once I make the commitment and do it each and every day at the same time it really does seem easier. The thing to remember is that I don’t take a shower every day at the exact same time but I do take a shower every single day so the commitment is to meditate before taking that shower. This morning we talked a lot about meditation and the benefits in my yoga class and even though I was at the studio for 3 hours I still did my 8 minute meditation when I got home and before I got cleaned up. I don’t know what will happen when I have to take multiple showers in a day but it certainly wouldn’t hurt to meditate multiple times a day, but who needs that pressure when you are just starting out? Not me, that is for sure.
My yoga instructor mentioned that she decided for one day to do 10, 1 minute meditation sessions throughout the day and she was telling us that it is really hard to meditate for even a minute during the day. This was interesting because I had heard that we can all find 2 minutes a day to meditate but I don’t think it is that simple. If there are 10 specific areas in which you know you will be meditating it might work but just finding 10 random times during the day seems very difficult.
During my work day I say to myself each and every day that today is the day that I will get up and stretch and get more water every hour. I try to remember but my day moves quickly and I really get up and stretch when I need to and get water when I reach for my jar and it is empty. I wish I was more mindful at work for the little things but I’m spending so time being mindful for the work things that I don’t have any more to give for the little things. The little things matter just as much so as I get better at meditating and reducing stressors my belief and hope is that it will help me focus on the little things as well. It is all about balance and although I have found some nice balance in some areas the other stuff will come.
I am fully expecting to find myself in more crash and burn sessions as I continue this endeavor for daily meditation but I just have to nice when I am struggling and allow the positive talk to be front and center and not allow any of the negative talk enter into the mix. This is not a sprint and won’t be over quickly so sure I’ll fall but it just matters that I get back up and try again.