Yesterday I went back to zero days without a flare and I find it interesting that I just wrote a blog about flares, what they mean to me and how I determine one. There was no question that Saturday was a full blown flare for me. I woke up in the middle of the night edgy and unable to sleep.
On my way to Bikram the sore throat started but I thought maybe the Bikram practice would help. Sometimes it does, and sometimes it doesn’t. This time it didn’t really work in the flare flavor. During my practice I could feel the pain and burning start in my joints and especially my lower back. The instructor came up to me and asked if I was alright since I was extremely pale. I told her not to worry about me and I did what my body would allow me to do. For instance when we hit the floor our transition posture is a situp but my lower back was not allowing any situps so I just rolled to one side and sat up. I had to make many modifications to my practice while also remaining true to alignment. I was exhausted when I was finished and walking very gingerly for everything from my jaw to my feet was hurting.
As soon as I walked through the door my husband knew immediately what was happening and just helped me upstairs to a shower then to lie down to wait it out. I spent the day moving very slowly but moving when I could and this morning I was right back to normal. I feel tired but my body is good as new. This is a debilitating flare and it comes on fast and hard with serious consequence and then gone just as fast. I don’t know if I appreciate the fury of this type of flare or if the teetering for days but no pain is better. I guess neither is great, just life.